Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen.
      -  Eph 3:20-21


The one who calls you is faithful, and he will do it. 1 Thessalonians 5:24


Lord God, where are you? You put this in me. You called me to this. Lord I know you are faithful and my timing is not yours. But God, where are you? I trust you God. You are the only one who has never failed. You ARE Faithfulness. But God, where are you? I feel dim and dark and weak. Others have given up and I have held on believing you to come through. Where are you? Two years I have been suspended. I have poured out the passion you gave me; over and over to indifference, laughter, and superficial credits. I need to see you. I need you to come through. Not for me but for your glory. You began this. You said you would finish. Do not delay any longer. Please God, I pray for movement. I don't know what to do anymore. 


God. This is yours. Whatcha gonna do with it?

Thoughts while driving a bit ago

January 7th

I was driving. I love a good drive. It was a beautiful day - warm for being winter. Something about movement that allows me a good think time. I started thinking about where I was. It was my second visit since I had moved away. I thought about my time, where I was, where I am, and the why's associated. Thankfulness. Both for my time there and that God gave me a way out. I was not in a good place there. It is not a bad place, but it wasn't good for me. Like a mental and spiritual fog. God has purposes though. As much as I didn't like it, I am thankful I was there for a time and thankful to have left. God, again, was teaching me how to be alone - a lesson it makes me nervous to think what for... but I am thankful.

In everything may we be thankful. May we flourish in His purposes. May we continue to be light when we don't understand the why's of life.

I am toothpaste.

I... am toothpaste.

I am toothpaste in a tube. I don't claim to disinfect, prevent cavities, clean, or cleanse and would be horrified to be told that I whiten. Like toothpaste, I am destined to serve in the field; though I currently live in a tube. Needing something I cannot accomplish on my own, I wait to be sent.

Reunion of friends - fire strengthens fire

Today I got to see my friend Sarah (uganda-journey.blogspot.com - she is a much better writer than me). We worked together while in Uganda. She has since gotten to go back. We talked about Uganda and she shared news from the field:
Gulu has grown... they now have a market chain from the south that carries bacon and dr. pepper.
The kids have grown
There isn't an afterschool program much anymore (the one we started and I want to continue) - my classroom awaits me.
Corruption hasn't ceased. The hardest thing (at least for me) to deal with in Uganda is corruption and lying. It seems it is extremely difficult to fully trust anyone as lying to a "friend's" face is appallingly common.
There are some more foreigners (some from US ) working out of Gulu.
My kids still ask about me.

I am both glad and sad to hear about them. Glad because I love them and care about how they are doing. Sad because I am still here. There is work to be done.

Pray for the kids. Pray for their country. Pray for me. Pray for movement.

new year

Happy new year!!! Hope you enjoyed its coming.
I pray the new year is blessed. May we see them with eyes renewed.